The Macs

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

tomorrow

Tomorrow is Cora's birthday.


Oh how we wish she was here so that we could celebrate her big FIRST birthday together. Tomorrow is going to be a hard day.  We never dreamed that we would be "celebrating" Cora's first birthday without her here with us.

When I taught kindergarten there was a song that we always sang on birthdays.  I loved it.  I always wanted to sing it to Cora on her birthday.

On the day when Cora was born,
On the day when Cora was born,
On the day when Cora was born,
The angels sang, they blew on their horns,
And they danced, they danced.
They smiled and raised up their hands,
On the day, on the day,
When Cora was born.   

We know that Cora is going to have the best party EVER in heaven tomorrow.  We just wish we could see her and eat cake together.  We miss her so much!

Cora was born at 10:03 in the morning on March 5th.  We are planning on visiting her grave around this time tomorrow morning with our families.  We are going to release pink balloons to celebrate the precious life of our sweet angel.  

Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
Hebrews 4:16

Please pray that God would give us strength to get through tomorrow.

493 Comments:

Blogger Kelli said...

I will be on my knees tomorrow morning praying for you. May God hold you tomorrow like he never has before. I pray that you feel HIS loving arms in a way that is so far beyond anything you have ever felt before.

March 4, 2009 at 7:00 PM  
Blogger Devon said...

when i first found your blog i was taken aback that our children share the same birthday...and i was so saddened to learn that your sweet cora has joined my boys in heaven...

they were born at 2:08 and 2:11pm on march 5, 2008....and died just two and three days later.

i will be thinking of your girl tomorrow as i celebrate my sons birthday. i know they will be having a great big birthday in heaven! but oh how i wish they were here....

((hugs)) to you....

March 4, 2009 at 7:00 PM  
Blogger Dancing Queen said...

we will MOST DEFINITELY be thinking of you, praying for you, and sending our love for peace to be with you!
what a special way to be together tomorrow...

many blessings tomorrow & always-
the hollands

March 4, 2009 at 7:01 PM  
Blogger Heather said...

It breaks my heart to think about what a tought day tomorrow will be for you. God will carry you tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:02 PM  
Blogger Samantha said...

Oh, how I wish I could carry some of your pain. To ease your grief, at least a little... I am heartbroken for you. My heart HURTS for you, I can't even begin to imagine how you must feel...

Your precious baby girl is in my thoughts and prayers every day. I haven't been able to take my cora's playground necklace off since I got it.

I will also release pink balloons and sing her birthday song to her in heaven.

March 4, 2009 at 7:04 PM  
Blogger Kristi REDISKE said...

Its done-I will be praying for you all.

March 4, 2009 at 7:06 PM  
Blogger Sarah Furlough said...

I will be praying for your family, especially tomorrow! God bless you!

March 4, 2009 at 7:07 PM  
Blogger Sara said...

The angels ARE singing...

March 4, 2009 at 7:07 PM  
Blogger Sheryl said...

i just sit here shaking my head. i want to scream "not fair!"

then you point us right back to the Savior. as strong as your faith is i know your hearts are in agony. praying for you tomorrow. it is unimaginable to me.

March 4, 2009 at 7:09 PM  
Blogger Hailey said...

praying in nc

March 4, 2009 at 7:10 PM  
Blogger kati said...

xoxo
that's really all i can say...

March 4, 2009 at 7:10 PM  
Blogger starnes family said...

Prayers from Colorado coming your way.

March 4, 2009 at 7:11 PM  
Blogger lauren said...

i wish i could take some of your grief and hold it for you.

it is so much to bear.

i will be on my knees praying for you tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:14 PM  
Blogger Amber said...

You are never far from my thoughts and prayers. I will pray extra special prayers tomorrow. Happy Birthday, Sweet Girl.

March 4, 2009 at 7:15 PM  
Blogger The Oldham Family said...

This is my favorite verse in hard times. I hope it will bring you courage and peace tomorrow.

Psalm 143:8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

March 4, 2009 at 7:15 PM  
Blogger Lindsey said...

Will be lifting you in prayer!

March 4, 2009 at 7:15 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Will be thinking of both of you tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:17 PM  
Blogger This Little Hen said...

I never realised Cora and my daughter were born a day apart. Lesley will be 1 on the 6th. Lesley and I will say a special prayer tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:17 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

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March 4, 2009 at 7:18 PM  
Blogger Chris said...

Again I am reading your post with tears. I am a stranger to you but I thought about Cora's birthday several times today . I will be thinking of you 2 and Cora tomorrow for her birthday.
God bless .

March 4, 2009 at 7:20 PM  
Blogger Danyele Easterhaus said...

our prayers are certainly with you...

sending you {hugs}...and many, many prayers

March 4, 2009 at 7:20 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'll be praying for you throughout the day as you celebrate your beautiful Cora's birthday. Tomorrow will be such an especially difficult day, so I pray the Lord's overwhelming peace and love will consume you.

March 4, 2009 at 7:20 PM  
Blogger Elizabeth Byler Younts said...

You will constantly be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow. That song is still true...the angels were dancing when Cora was born...and they will be dancing with her on her birthday. Sing that song to her and you know that the Angels & God will be sure to let her know how much her parents love her.

Your strength and dependence on God are so touching...again, you will be in my prayers.

March 4, 2009 at 7:21 PM  
Blogger The Muddy Moose Bath Boutique said...

Please know that you will be on the minds of many, many people. We all will be praying for you all tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:23 PM  
Blogger oneordinaryday said...

Keeping you in my prayers.
Michelle

March 4, 2009 at 7:23 PM  
Blogger jsuggs said...

I've been reading your blog since Cora got sick. My heart is so touched with grief for your family - I couldn't help but cry when I read your post. I don't know what to say except I'm sorry and you all will be in my heart and in my prayers tomorrow (as you have been already). May God bless you with many happy memories of Cora on her birthday and every day.

March 4, 2009 at 7:23 PM  
Blogger Heather said...

Oh my heart aches for you so terribly :( I will most certainly be praying for you extra hard tomorrow and will also release pink balloons tomorrow in honor of your sweet Cora. My heart breaks and I miss her although I've never met her. My prayers are with you always.
Hugs and prayers,
Heather~ On the Homefront

March 4, 2009 at 7:25 PM  
Blogger Cass. Just Curious said...

We will sing Cora's birthday song tomorrow morning when Lexi wakes up. You are in our prayers.

March 4, 2009 at 7:27 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and praying for you!!!

Em
from Australia

March 4, 2009 at 7:27 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

We will be praying harder than ever tomorrow. Tomorrow is going to be very difficult but I know your amazing faith in God will get you through. Remember you are not alone! Lots of love!

March 4, 2009 at 7:29 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

I will be praying for you tonight and tomorrow as you endure what will be most undoubtedly a tough day.

March 4, 2009 at 7:29 PM  
Blogger Melody said...

Happy Birthday sweet Cora. You are such a beautiful, precious girl and Heaven is so blessed to have you!

I'll be praying for you, I know it will not be an easy day for you. ((hugs))

March 4, 2009 at 7:32 PM  
Blogger Summer said...

I found your blog through a friend of a friend...you are continually in my thoughts and prayers. I cry out to God on behalf of your family. Thank you for sharing your life. We are all learning through you.

March 4, 2009 at 7:32 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Ever since I read your story and have been praying for you I keep thinking of this day. My mom and I also have our birthday tomorrow. I have been thinking of your sweet family all week and am praying for a good day for your family tomorrow filled with warm memories of your sweet baby girl. What a sweet song you sang at school, too precious.

March 4, 2009 at 7:32 PM  
Blogger Scarlet O'Kara said...

There will be a wonderful celebration in heaven tomorrow and one day the two of you will be able to celebrate with Sweet Angel Cora.

Many hugs to you both as well as prayers for strength...

March 4, 2009 at 7:33 PM  
Blogger Elaine at Matters of the Heart) said...

Lifting you in prayer.

March 4, 2009 at 7:33 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

There aren't any words to take away your pain. I am so very very
sorry for the loss of your sweet baby Cora..My thoughts, tears and prayers will be with tomorrow as they have been since Cora was first admitted to the hospital. Oh how I wish I understood the purpose of taking such a wanted, happy, chubby, loved baby girl. I know we will know one day. You sing to your baby girl her birthday song..I also will be releasing pink balloons in your families honor.

Kim(alabama)

March 4, 2009 at 7:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy birthday, Cora! I'll be lifting you all up tomorrow. My daughter turned 1 on Sunday, so your story touches me deeply. Blessings, peace and grace to you and your family.

March 4, 2009 at 7:35 PM  
Blogger Marla Taviano said...

Crying for you. Rejoicing for Cora. Praying that God holds you so tightly tomorrow. My heart breaks for you both--and for everyone who knew and loved your beautiful girl.

I'm just so, so, so sorry.

March 4, 2009 at 7:36 PM  
Blogger Karen said...

May the love and strength of perfect strangers who love your baby so very much carry you through tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:36 PM  
Blogger Beki - TheRustedChain said...

Jess, I have had that song running through my head for weeks, with Cora's name in it.

I will be praying for you tomorrow and singing that song.

I know lots of people have left links for you to check out, but I found this blog earlier tonight and thought of you. It's a lady who lost their daughter suddenly and there are some beautiful photos and words there. http://sheyerosemeyerphotography.com/blog/

I pray that God holds you and Joel so tight tomorrow, that you are blessed with a peace that passes all understanding, that you have faith, and that you wear hot pink. :)

Cora and the angels will be dancing and blowing on their horns tomorrow!

March 4, 2009 at 7:39 PM  
Blogger Leah said...

I have come across your blog like so many others...through friends of friends. I starting reading your blog shortly after Cora went to the hospital. I think of you often and pray for you all. I will continue to pray for you and Joel and your families. Even though I live a few hours from you, I will be looking up to the sky for the pink balloons tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:40 PM  
Blogger Aimee said...

I will be thinking about you and Joel all day tomorrow. Prayers for strength and hope.

March 4, 2009 at 7:40 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sending big hugs to you guys all the way from WA state...also sending you strength to get thru tomorrow. Happy Heavenly Birthday Sweet Cora!!!

March 4, 2009 at 7:42 PM  
Blogger Meg said...

Happy Birthday Sweet Cora. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

March 4, 2009 at 7:45 PM  
Blogger jandkland said...

This is just so wrong, but I pray with you that you are able to approach the throne of grace with confidence in this time of terrible, unimaginable need. I will be thinking of you as you release those balloons in honor and memory of your beautiful little girl. It's so unfair, but it IS. May God shower you with a deep peace and help you feel close to your baby.

--Kelley in Georgia

March 4, 2009 at 7:45 PM  
Blogger Cotrone said...

You have been on my mind all day and I want you to know how I could take away some of your pain. Thank-you for sharing your beautiful little girl with us and know we will be praying for you both tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 7:46 PM  
Blogger Karin Katherine said...

I too will be praying for you and your family tomorrow. We celebrated our precious daughter's first birthday today and tomorrow our family will celebrate Cora's with you through prayer.

March 4, 2009 at 7:46 PM  
Blogger Creationship said...

Praying for you tonight and tomorrow. I wish I could carry it for you...if only for a moment. Crying for you now. Blessings.

March 4, 2009 at 7:48 PM  
Blogger megan said...

Cora will be having the best 1st Birthday with her Sweet Sweet heavenly father...I will be in prayer for you tommorow morning as you release the ballons up to Cora in heaven. Blessings to you

March 4, 2009 at 7:51 PM  
Blogger singing mama said...

Praying for you as you celebrate the life of your precious daughter.

Praying for God's hands to comfort you and wrap you in His love.

I cant imagine what you are going thru and the hard road you are now walking.

Luv singingmama

March 4, 2009 at 7:53 PM  
Blogger A Dusty Frame said...

Praying for you.

March 4, 2009 at 7:54 PM  
Blogger Kelly said...

I will be thinking about and praying for you tonight and tomorrow, as I do every other night and day. I can't imagine how difficult tomorrow will be for you and your family. I know that Cora is having a huge celebration in Heaven. Happy Birthday, sweet baby.

March 4, 2009 at 7:55 PM  
Blogger Polka Dot Moon said...

Happy Birthday Sweet Little Angel Cora.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Joel and your family tomorrow.

Sending you (((hugs))) and many prayers!
Denise

March 4, 2009 at 7:55 PM  
Blogger Laura Marchant said...

I will be thinking of you and Cora tomorrow at 10:03...sweet baby Cora, you are missed by all who have been touched by your story.

March 4, 2009 at 7:56 PM  
Blogger Kat said...

I will be praying for you and your sweet family tomorrow. I think and pray about you every day. May the Lord shower you with warmth and love. Your faith is an inspiration to us all.

March 4, 2009 at 7:57 PM  
Blogger The Carroll's said...

I know there are no words but I keep searching for them anyway... I promise to pray as I breathe for you and your family. Come Emmanuel, be with this special family who loves you.

March 4, 2009 at 7:58 PM  
Blogger purejoy said...

i will be celebrating cora's sweet life tomorrow. a celebration of her being and her living forever in the arms of Jesus. one day there will be a joyous reunion!
thinking of you!

March 4, 2009 at 7:59 PM  
Blogger Courtney Kay said...

Praying for you as you remember sweet Cora

March 4, 2009 at 8:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've been praying for you to have strength tomorrow. I never knew Cora yet she's touched me so deeply. I ordered a necklace from Etsy (as well as a few other things!) and will wear it in honor of Cora and my own, healthy daughter Kate who is almost 19 months old. Stay strong. Many hugs! ~kris~

March 4, 2009 at 8:05 PM  
Blogger Jennifer W said...

Your strength and unwavering faith are so inspiring to me. You are in my heart and I will be thinking of you tomorrow celebrating Cora's beautiful life.

March 4, 2009 at 8:05 PM  
Blogger Megan @ Hold it Up to the Light said...

Oh how I'll be praying for you tomorrow....

May God give you a Peace that passes all understanding....

March 4, 2009 at 8:05 PM  
Blogger It Is Worth It said...

I, too will hit my knees for you tomorrow. My heart is heavy at the thought of the weight of your burden. I have been a believer for 24 years. And I have known sorrow and heart wrenching grief. I have experienced the loss of children I have never held on this side of heaven. I have known the peace that passes our understanding and the rest that comes for trading my heavy burdens for those that are promised to "be light." But I have looked at my own sweet children's faces in light of your loss and cannot fathom what you have been asked to journey through now. I say all that to say~ all I know to do is to intercede on your behalf. So the Gibson family will stop our homeschooling tomorrow morning at 10 and pray through the time of Cora's birth. May God's peace and father's love cover you heavily.

March 4, 2009 at 8:07 PM  
Blogger Andrea said...

I was on my knees all day today, weeping & praying for you and your husband. I don't even know you, I just know a friend who knows your friend, but you are being lifted in prayer by our entire small group. God is so amazing and He has to be so pleased that you are choosing to let Him work through these awful circumstances. He is so faithful. ~A sister in Christ

March 4, 2009 at 8:10 PM  
Blogger hoosier68 said...

"During your times of trial and suffering, there is only one set of footprints in the sand as it is then that Jesus carries you." There will be only one set of footprints tomorrow and the sky will glow pink! Praying for you from Indiana.

March 4, 2009 at 8:10 PM  
Blogger Kasey said...

Praying that you will find comfort in Christ tomorrow and always.

March 4, 2009 at 8:11 PM  
Blogger Anonymous said...

Your strength and your faith are inspirational. My heart breaks each time I think of you. I will be praying for your family.

March 4, 2009 at 8:11 PM  
Blogger Falling Around said...

Jess,

It breaks my heart anew every time I think about you and Joel celebrating Cora's 1st birthday tomorrow without her. I will be in prayer for you throughout the day, and I will be on my knees at 10am praying God's peace over you.

We released 2 dozen balloons on my son's 1st birthday, and I think it is so sweet that you will be doing the same. In fact, to honor Cora's birthday, her life & sacrifice, your enduring strength, and all that your family has come to mean to me, I would like to join you and release pink balloons for Cora tomorrow here in California. I hope that will be okay with you.

Praying God's Grace Fills You,
Christy Klein

March 4, 2009 at 8:13 PM  
Blogger Julie said...

I am praying now and will be tomorrow remembering your precious Cora. Happy birthday sweet girl.

Hugs and prayers.

March 4, 2009 at 8:14 PM  
Blogger ~Rachel said...

My little boys pray for you nightly! And we will spend our morning tomorrow praying for strength. My heart is so heavy for you but I know that God will provide you with love. Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful baby girl! My life will be forever changed.

March 4, 2009 at 8:17 PM  
Blogger Lindsay said...

i'll be thinking of you and your families tomorrow- i know it's not how you'd have planned to celebate cora's first birthday but you're plans sound beautiful. you're in my thoughts and prayers!

March 4, 2009 at 8:22 PM  
Blogger aimee said...

Oh, Jess....this is not what you planned for Cora's birthday, and it will be hard. But I will pray that the Lord wraps his arms around you and your family and comforts you as you grieve and celebrate your sweet angel. Your birthday song reminds me of a children's book by Nancy Tillman called "On the Night That You Were Born". It is a such special book and it's always makes me get teary. I know I will think of Cora each time I read it now.

Take care tomorrow....I'll be thinking of you and your family.

Aimee

March 4, 2009 at 8:23 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm crying and praying for you now as I think of what a difficult day tomorrow will be. Like others have said, I so wish I could carry a bit of your pain. I pray that Jesus will hold you close tomorrow and whisper His love to you.

March 4, 2009 at 8:26 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I remember how hard it was to celebrate my daughter's first birthday without her.....I will be praying for a peaceful day full of wonderful memories of your daughter's smiles. We have a tradition of lighting a candle on a cupcake and singing Happy Birthday on our daughter's birthday. It's bittersweet but a tradition that we love.

March 4, 2009 at 8:29 PM  
Blogger mommyof2sons said...

I will be praying for your family tomorrow. And we will release a balloon from Ohio for Cora too!!

God bless you!

March 4, 2009 at 8:31 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

We are thankful for the opportunity to hold you up to the Father - tomorrow - and for every time He brings you to our minds...

Tami and Chris

March 4, 2009 at 8:37 PM  
Blogger Sarah Joy said...

I will be praying amd most definately will stop at her birth time to stop and sing as loud as I can to her! My heart is so broken for you guys but yet so inspired by your resiliant faith. Many blessings on you both as you walk through the next 24 hours.

March 4, 2009 at 8:37 PM  
Blogger Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Praying for His strength, His grace, His comfort, and His peace as He holds you and carries you...

I like what one commenter said: "The angels ARE singing..."

Oh, yes...they are...

March 4, 2009 at 8:38 PM  
Blogger Megan said...

i will be praying for you and your family...god will be near to you

March 4, 2009 at 8:40 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow. When I think it can't get worse, it does! I wish I were your neighbor and that I could hug you and hold your hand through all of this. My heart is breaking for you, and I hope that somehow through all of this, God is giving you little pieces of some joy. I'll be praying for you tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 8:40 PM  
Blogger The Jones' said...

Sending you much needed hugs and prayers. You are most definitely right, sweet Cora will have an amazing celebration tomorrow! Thank you Jesus for your unfailing love! Love,
Liz

March 4, 2009 at 8:42 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you guys!!!

March 4, 2009 at 8:45 PM  
Blogger Cathy said...

Happy birthday, baby...

March 4, 2009 at 8:50 PM  
Blogger The Van Ordens said...

My heart just aches for you! We will be saying lots of prayers for strength! Happy Heavenly Birthday sweet Cora!

March 4, 2009 at 8:53 PM  
Blogger Misty Rice said...

We will celebrate with you.... and we will release pink balloons also in Cora's name. We all celebrate like family!!!

My heart aches for both of you (all of your family).... please know that I will pray tonight that God continue to give you strength and peace throughout this storm and chapter in your life.

God Bless.

March 4, 2009 at 8:53 PM  
Blogger Stacy said...

I have prayed every single day for you and Joel and will pray even harder tomorrow as you celebrate Cora's birthday. My heart is heavy for you and I know there isn't anything any of us can really do, but pray for you.

May you feel God's love and peace tomorrow and all the days to come.

God Bless!

March 4, 2009 at 8:53 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you...

March 4, 2009 at 8:54 PM  
Blogger Christine said...

Jess and Joel - I will be praying so hard for you tomorrow. On this tough and emotional day, I hope you are met with gentle, sweet memories of precious Cora and unexpected peace. May you feel the mighty hand of God upon you in a profound and undoubtable way.
Much love,
Christine

March 4, 2009 at 8:54 PM  
Blogger Becky said...

We will be praying for all of you tomorrow. May you feel God's loving arms around you. God Bless Cora!

March 4, 2009 at 8:55 PM  
Blogger thehighbargers said...

Praying for you......especially tomorrow! Happy Birthday Sweet Baby!

March 4, 2009 at 8:55 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you.

SW WI MOMMY

March 4, 2009 at 8:57 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you. What a beautiful way to celebrate Cora's birthday.

Macalla

March 4, 2009 at 8:57 PM  
Blogger Trisha Larson said...

Tomorrow is my son Nathan's first birthday as well. His name means "gift from God" and he died of a heart defect on March 30th. We only had him for 25 days. I hope that all our kids are able to rejoice together tomorrow. I'm so sad and I wish that they were all here with us. My heart is broken too! I'll pray for us all!

Trisha

March 4, 2009 at 8:59 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will be praying tomorrow, I was crying wile I was reading, I wish if I could take some of your pain an relief you a little. Sometimes I just do not understand why things happens I pry to God to give me some understanding but it is really hard to do when you lost your love ones, few years ago we lost my cousin for the same reason, Cancer and leaving her two years old little Girl without her Mommy and even though we have give her so much love I know is hard for her to understand why her mother. I'm pretty sure is the same for you but I will pray a lot and I'm learning o lot from you guys I love all the bible verses that you post is helping me a little bid. and just Cora is helping me trough you with your faith.

March 4, 2009 at 9:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hugs and prayers for you from Georgia all day long tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 9:06 PM  
Blogger Trasie Bressler said...

Happy Birthday Sweet Sweet Cora Paige! May God surround you with his love and peace tomorrow and always. She will be dancing and singing with the angels who danced and sang the day she was born. My prayers will be with you! God Bless you today and always!

March 4, 2009 at 9:10 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

I will be praying for you and your family tommorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 9:10 PM  
Blogger Kelli said...

Will pray for you at the specific time of Cora's birth. My heart aches for you. God will hold you in His care because He is the ultimate promise keeper.

March 4, 2009 at 9:12 PM  
Blogger Hayes Family said...

Please know that the Hayes Family from Kansas City will be praying for you (even more than usual) tomorrow!

March 4, 2009 at 9:13 PM  
Blogger Mike, Chelsea and Co. said...

Happy Birthday beautiful sweet Cora. We will be thinking of you and your family and keeping your dear sweet parent in our prayers.

The Ostler Family

March 4, 2009 at 9:17 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will be praying for you today and tomorrow, I also will be releasing pink balloons for Cora tomorrow together with my daughter here in Florida. The Sky will be pink for little Cora.

Elda

March 4, 2009 at 9:18 PM  
Blogger Elizabeth said...

Your story touches me so much.

Your beautiful plump cheeked little girl is turning one two years to the day that my father left this earth and one year to the day that I discovered I was pregnant with my beautiful boy.

There are few things in this world that my daddy loved more than plump cheeked little girls so I hope they find each other up there and celebrate her wonderful day together eating cake and singing songs.

I don't know where you find your strength but your faith is inspiring.

March 4, 2009 at 9:22 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

I will be praying for you and your family tomorrow. You're right, she will be having the best birthday ever. I am so in awe of your strength through faith since the beginning of all this.

March 4, 2009 at 9:25 PM  
Blogger Julie said...

Oh, Jess! This just makes me well up with tears (again!). My heart just hurts for you and know I will be thinking of you all day. I wish you could eat cake with Cora too. You are such a gifted party planner and I know Cora's birthday would have been SO cute, but heaven's is even more perfect.

So good to see you today. Thank you for sharing your heart with us, being real, and challenging us all in our faith.

Love you!

March 4, 2009 at 9:25 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

I will be in constant prayer for you and your family tomorrow. We will also send sweet Cora birthday wishes. My heart breaks for you.

March 4, 2009 at 9:27 PM  
Blogger Alyssa said...

I watched Cora's service on Sunday. I almost turned it off several times. It was so hard to watch. My heart continues to break for you. While at the same time, I am amazed by you and how God is using you to further His kingdom. It is sooo hard to understand, but it is not for nothing. He is using this and you are hearing His call. You are doing His work. And He will bless you. I just keep thinking of the verse, "Oh ye good and faithful servant" and every time I think of you two.

I've been thinking about you guys a lot this week. I know what a hard day awaits you tomorrow. But we are all praying for you. Praying that God will wrap his arms around you and comfort you like none of us can. Peace.

March 4, 2009 at 9:29 PM  
Blogger Sara said...

My little boy was born on the same day as Cora. I will include her in our thoughts of birthday wishes tomorrow. I'm so sorry.

March 4, 2009 at 9:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hugs and prayers for you and your family. Happy birthday, precious little angel. We know that your love will be surrounding your mommy and daddy. We pray that they will find comfort in their grief and sorrow. Lots of love to you all from strangers and friends all over the world.

March 4, 2009 at 9:30 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will be lifting you in prayer. I can't imagine the heartache.

March 4, 2009 at 9:37 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

I'm glad none of my first graders has a birthday tomorrow. I don't think I could make it through that song. We'll be outside at recess at 10:00. I'll be thinking of you, praying for you, looking toward the sky and watching for pink balloons. Love you so much.

March 4, 2009 at 9:38 PM  
Blogger rachel vaughn said...

i can't imagine. we'll be praying.

March 4, 2009 at 9:38 PM  
Blogger angie c said...

Tomorrow will be so hard but I pray that you will find some peace and some smiles nonetheless. Eat a big piece of cake for Cora and celebrate all the wonderfulness that she brought to your life. God will be giving us gorgeous weather in kansas tomorrow in honor of your angel. oxoxo to you guys

March 4, 2009 at 9:42 PM  
Blogger Dawn said...

only know you from your blog but I think about Cora and you 2 often. Happy Birthday sweet little Cora Paige.

March 4, 2009 at 9:45 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

*sigh* I have kept you in my prayers since before Cora's passing. I think of you all every day and especially Cora. A lot of us at Wesley have had her on our minds. Know that though I may not have met you in the best of circumstances, that you all hold a very special place in my heart. The strength you and your daughter showed and faith that was never ending in God was such a beautiful thing to see. I will never forget humming worship songs while taking care of Cora at her bedside and looking at her and noticing she still looked ever so peaceful asleep with a small smile on her face. That beautiful smile and gorgeous eyes are what I will remember tomorrow on her 1st Birthday! Happy Birthday Cora!

March 4, 2009 at 9:45 PM  
Blogger forever folding laundry said...

Will absolutely be praying for you tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 9:45 PM  
Blogger Monica said...

My thoughts, prayers and love will be with you tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 9:45 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Prayers for you and your family from Hopkinsville, KY.

The Williams Family

March 4, 2009 at 9:45 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and praying for you in Massachusetts!

March 4, 2009 at 9:46 PM  
Blogger Cathy said...

Praying for you on your precious daughter's birthday. God be with you all.

March 4, 2009 at 9:49 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I think of your sweet family several times throughout the day. I’m a complete stranger but Cora’s story has touched me beyond words. I have a two year old son and I can’t help but ache for you and your husband. I continue to pray that God grants you peace. Thank you for sharing Cora’s story and for being an inspiration to parents everywhere! My son & I will release pink balloons tomorrow for your sweet Cora, too. Big Hugs from North Georgia!!

March 4, 2009 at 9:52 PM  
Blogger Netta said...

Prayers for you and your family from Kentucky.

March 4, 2009 at 9:55 PM  
Blogger Lynn Jones said...

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March 4, 2009 at 10:07 PM  
Blogger Katherine said...

My prayers are always with you. I pray that the Lord will hold you tight and comfort you. Sweet Cora will always be watching over you and waiting for the day that you are together again.

March 4, 2009 at 10:08 PM  
Blogger Sa-Sea said...

We will be thinking of you and praying that God will give you strength. My heart hurts for you! Your precious little angel is watching over you and has more love than any one of us could ever know! My heart goes out to you!!!

March 4, 2009 at 10:08 PM  
Blogger Stewart Family said...

I will dirty my knees tomorrow for you and Joel. I know that it will be a hard day, but somehow you can do it. Lean on each other and turn to God. I remembered an old favorite song tonight and wanted to share it. I'm sure you've heard it before too. Always remember that after the rain, the sun will come out! You never have to face the storm alone.

Aaron and Jeoffrey: After the Rain
I cover my heart
Turn from the wind
Button my coat
Here comes the storm again
What can I do but to trust in Him

'Cause I know the deeper my faith runs
The stronger I become
And the thunder, it may shake me
But I always know that

CHORUS:
After the rain
You can look to the sky again
The clouds will give way
To the light of the sun
After the rain
You know that you've made it through
And you'll finally see the joy from the pain
After the rain

Everyone needs
Everyone hurts
Everyone feels
The weight of the world sometimes
But don't let the wind sweep your heart away

'Cause even the roughest waters cleanse
So when they come again
Let them serve as a reminder
You can always know that

CHORUS

Can't you see the hand of Jesus
Reaching out for you
You never have to face the storm alone

March 4, 2009 at 10:10 PM  
Blogger Country Roads said...

Praying for you in NE. God's peace be with you.

March 4, 2009 at 10:10 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have been "dreading" this extra painful day for you. I will be on my knees!

I end all my prayers for you with this verse and will lift you up constantly tomorrow.

"May the God of peace be with you all. Amen." Romans 15:33

Happy Birthday sweet Cora.

Love you,
Angela

March 4, 2009 at 10:13 PM  
Blogger Brian and Staci said...

Your precious family will be in my thoughts and prayers all the live long day. Much love to you both.

March 4, 2009 at 10:13 PM  
Blogger Lynn Jones said...

You have lifted and encouraged so many of us with the precious verses you have shared these past weeks. I pray God will return all of that in kind as you go through the day tomorrow. May each member of your family be blessed in just the way needed tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 10:14 PM  
Blogger The Boccias said...

That first sentence, the picture, the words to the birthday song...so painfully beautiful. Praying, praying, praying.

March 4, 2009 at 10:18 PM  
Blogger rentz said...

Oh, Jess. That song always made me cry when you sang it at school for my kiddos' birthdays . Your constantly in my prayers, but especially tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 10:19 PM  
Blogger beckley said...

10:03. I'll set an alarm.
I knew this was coming tomorrow and have been praying for you. aching for you. wishing otherwise for you.
I am so sorry tomorrow is not what it should be.
I am so sorry.
Grace and Peace to you as strength tomorrow.
r

March 4, 2009 at 10:21 PM  
Blogger sarahross said...

My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you, especially tomorrow on Cora's birthday.

March 4, 2009 at 10:22 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lifting you up in prayer from Oklahoma!

March 4, 2009 at 10:22 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Oh how my heart aches for you guys. I know tomorrow will be such a difficult day but just think about Cora having the best birthday party EVER in heaven. Can you hear those angels singing her favorite Christian praise songs? You guys have such amazing faith and I know God will help you get through tomorrow knowing and trusting that Cora is having such an amazing day in heaven. I will join with you guys tomorrow and release a pink Happy Birthday balloon in Cora's honor for her birthday. Lean on God and trust that His words are never failing and that He will hold you up and get you through each tomorrow until you rejoin your precious angel in heaven. I will keep praying for you and Joel.

Precious angel Cora-your mommy and daddy miss you and love you so much. I even miss you so much and was never given the privilege to meet you here on Earth. I wish you a very Happy 1st Birthday and may you receive the best birthday party ever in Heaven with lots of chocolate cake.

In Christ,
Amber

March 4, 2009 at 10:24 PM  
Blogger Julie said...

I've been praying for you and will continue to do so. I pray you will have extra strength and peace to make it through Cora's birthday without her by your side. I'm guessing she'll be thinking of you tomorrow and cheering you on with the "great cloud of witnesses" in heaven.

March 4, 2009 at 10:26 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Jess, I'll be praying for you, Joel and your families tomorrow. I am so sorry that you are suffering so. Words fail me. Cora Paige...such a beauty. I'll never see another pink balloon without thinking of her.

Elizabeth

March 4, 2009 at 10:27 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Many thoughts and prayers to your family and sweet Cora.

March 4, 2009 at 10:32 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday sweet baby!! We are complete strangers to you...but we will be praying for strength for you and your family!! What a heavenly party will be taking place tomorrow!! Big hugs from Iowa!!

March 4, 2009 at 10:33 PM  
Blogger Megan @ SimplyThrifty said...

You continue to be in my prayers. May you feel the grace of the Lord tomorrow as you remember Cora's special day.

That is a beautiful birthday song.

I am so sorry that Cora is not in your arms as you celebrate her birth just one short year ago.

March 4, 2009 at 10:35 PM  
Blogger MJMILLS said...

many prayers your way

March 4, 2009 at 10:37 PM  
Blogger Cara said...

My heart goes out to you both. My thoughts and prayers will be with you tomorrow.

March 4, 2009 at 10:38 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i wish you peace and strength tomorrow, and i too will be thinking of you and your families the whole day through.

March 4, 2009 at 10:39 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am sitting here in tears for you right now as I read this. I am sure if you sing the song for Cora she will still be able to hear you in heaven. I would give anything to have you guys be able to spend her birthday with her. At least for now you can rest in the comfort that one day you will be spending all of eternity with your sweet little girl. Lots of prayers coming your way! Happy Birthday Sweet Cora!

Ashley in Phoenix

March 4, 2009 at 10:44 PM  
Blogger e family said...

I'll be thinking about you & Joel tomorrow, as well as your whole family. May you all have the strength you need for each other. Happy Birthday little Cora...

March 4, 2009 at 10:45 PM  
Blogger Don, Aimee, Kaitlyn and Kysen said...

Heaven wil have quite a party tomorow and I know that Cora will enjoy all of the ballons she will get tomorrow! I pray that God will squeeze you extra tight tomorrow! I cannot express to you enough how much impact your daughter has had on my life, especially the way I look at my kids! God bless your family as you get through a difficult day tomorrow! You will be in my prayers!

March 4, 2009 at 11:00 PM  
Blogger tami said...

I praise God for your family and the testimony your sweet little girl has shared with my family and the world! We will be lifting you before our heavenly Father tomorrow as we do everyday!!

March 4, 2009 at 11:10 PM  
Blogger Jennifer said...

Bless your hearts!

March 4, 2009 at 11:14 PM  
Blogger Misty said...

I will say a extra prayer for you guys tonight for strength to make it through tomorrow. I know you will miss her but remember she is having a GREAT party in heaven.

You cannot imagine how much your daughter has touched my life.

I admire your strength in God and the strength you have to continue on a daily basis. Keep it up and hang in there...I am proud of you guys.

March 4, 2009 at 11:15 PM  
Blogger cheryl said...

Precious girl...our Lord has been through what he is walking you though and he WILL give you the strength you need. I'm pretty sure you'll come away rejoicing in her life.
You'll have good days and bad days, but time does heal and before long, you'll be having more good days than bad. It's such a blessing to have your "sewers" keeping you buys and keeping little Cora's memories alive! She was your gift from God, on loan until it was time for her to return home...You will miss her, but you'll be together with her again in glory and she'll say to you, "What took you so long Mommy and Daddy?"
I'm praying.

March 4, 2009 at 11:18 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have cried a lot since I have read your blog. Little Cora has made an impact on me and I'm sure on others. I could never imagine what you have gone thru. You are so strong to be getting thru this. You and your husband both. I am so sorry you couldn't physically be with your daughter on her first birthday.

March 4, 2009 at 11:19 PM  
Blogger heather spratt said...

I will be praying...you can count on it!

March 4, 2009 at 11:25 PM  
Blogger texasinafrica said...

Happy birthday, sweet baby girl. Jesus, please give her mom and daddy peace that passes all understanding.

March 4, 2009 at 11:39 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Praying and thinking of you!

March 4, 2009 at 11:43 PM  
Blogger Elizabeth-Plain and Simple said...

Praying for your family.

Blessings,
Elizabeth

March 4, 2009 at 11:47 PM  
Blogger Amber said...

You are in my prayers! I know that tomorrow will be a sad day for your family, but I will be praying that God's peace and presence will be with you in very tangible ways, comforting your hearts.

March 4, 2009 at 11:50 PM  
Blogger Candice said...

Maybe this is the wrong thing to say, but it's not fair!! I'm so, so sorry your can't hold your little girl on her first birthday. God will hold her tightly today.

((HUGS))

March 4, 2009 at 11:53 PM  
Blogger Wehoagies said...

Definitely praying for you guys. Strength for today...

March 4, 2009 at 11:56 PM  
Blogger Avily Jerome said...

Praying for you on this painful day!
God bless!

March 5, 2009 at 12:01 AM  
Blogger ran shae said...

i'll be praying for you both tomorrow, trusting that as you lean on Him, He will hold you up.

~randi

March 5, 2009 at 12:04 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Tonight, I am crying with you. My heart breaks for you. Tonight, I join in the throngs of people praying for you.
Even though I only "know" you through your blog, since beginning to read it, a day has not gone by where you or your precious daughter are not in my thoughts.
Psalm 91:1 is a verse I often turn to in times of need (I think of it as my 911 verse:)) "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty." May you feel all the love and prayers that are being sent your way!

Kristin Dykstra
Alberta, Canada

March 5, 2009 at 12:10 AM  
Blogger Kathy said...

Oh, my dear, you will be the focus of many prayers tomorrow. You will certainly be in mine.
xo...Kathy

March 5, 2009 at 12:19 AM  
Blogger KK said...

I will be praying as I have been since first coming across your blog. I can't imagine what you are going through, but I know Who does and I pray He holds you close.

March 5, 2009 at 12:24 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i have prayed for you today. that you would find joy in your memories of yoru sweet baby girl. i have followed your story since cora's passing. my husband and i sobbed that day. i cry now as i write this. happy birthday sweet cora. happy happy birthday sweet girl...sarah gillard. knox, indiana

March 5, 2009 at 12:26 AM  
Blogger Teaching by Mom said...

I dont know you, but I love your family. My the Lord bless you tomorrow. I know he will be smiling on you as he holds your baby in his arms. xo and blessings.

March 5, 2009 at 12:27 AM  
Blogger lgraves said...

tears are shared. praying. believing. hoping.

March 5, 2009 at 12:27 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have been praying for you & your little Cora since I first read about her. Tears roll down my face everytime I think about her. She has changed my life more than you will ever know. The strength you both have is amazing. I pray you will feel God's loving arms wrapped around you today.

March 5, 2009 at 12:38 AM  
Blogger Sophia said...

may the Lord grant you peace and strength tomorrow as you celebrate precious Cora....

March 5, 2009 at 12:41 AM  
Blogger meg duerksen said...

love you.
i am going to watch for pink balloons. :)

March 5, 2009 at 12:51 AM  
Blogger Bailey said...

Praying for you - for comfort and peace in knowing that your sweet precious baby is safe in heaven.

March 5, 2009 at 12:57 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was awake with a sick one, and I check your blog frequently, and pray for you often each day. What a painful post, honest, and so beautiful. Even though you cannot all be together, it is certainly still the day she entered your life and it changed forever. This will always be a special day for you; I am so grateful that you will be able to spend it with family. I pray that you will be able to get through your tough day. May the Lord bless you, and keep you, tomorrow and each day after.

March 5, 2009 at 1:04 AM  
Blogger Kirstin Stenberg said...

Cora will be in our thoughts, and in our hearts tomorrow. I cannot think of a more amazing first birthday for such a bright ray of sunshine as Cora- oh to be held in HIS arms and be celebrated like that with Our Lord!

We too will release a single pink balloon in memory of Cora's life, along with a single blue for our dear friend C who lost her Bug one month ago at 36 weeks gestation.

Im SQUUUUEEEEEEEZZZZING you from CA.
Love
Kirstin and Aislinn Stenberg

March 5, 2009 at 1:05 AM  
Blogger Jennjilla said...

I will be saying an extra special prayer for you guys tomorrow. I can't imagine how hard it will be. I wish I had something other than "I'm so sorry" to say about this whole thing. I hope you can smile through your tears tomorrow and know that you have a lot of people thinking about you!

March 5, 2009 at 1:26 AM  
Blogger Lemon Lollipop LLC said...

Praying for you for tomorrow...

March 5, 2009 at 1:27 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well, our time zone is ahead of yours here in Australia. "Happy birthday, sweet Cora Paige." My ten year old is crying as we have read your latest entry. I will be thinking of you and praying hard for you through the middle of the night here in OZ - knowing of your visit to Cora's grave and how difficult the day will be for you, this being, one of the "firsts" in terms of anniversaries and occasions. Look after each other and keep that faith strong. You will get through this.
Tracy (Brisbane, Australia)

March 5, 2009 at 1:59 AM  
Blogger madelyn said...

March 5, 2009 at 3:06 AM  
Blogger Lauren said...

Will be praying for you! Happy Birthday, Cora!!!

March 5, 2009 at 4:34 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is the evening of Thursday 5 March here in Australia. I've just sung Happy Birthday to Cora.

May God grant you strength, hope and peace to get through the day.

With a big hug.

March 5, 2009 at 4:55 AM  
Blogger ginger said...

Praying for you today...that
"...the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you." Philippians 4:7-9

March 5, 2009 at 5:37 AM  
Blogger Princess Martha said...

My thoughts & prayers are with you both.
xxx

March 5, 2009 at 5:49 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday sweet Cora! I know you will have the BEST birthday party. you are in my thoughts and prayers!

March 5, 2009 at 6:11 AM  
Blogger KDS said...

Happy Birthday Cora! I will be praying for you and your family today. May God give you strength.

March 5, 2009 at 6:20 AM  
Blogger Micah said...

Happy Birthday, sweet Cora! It gives us such hope to know that you are in a place with no sickness and sorrow, no tears and no pain.

Our thoughts and prayers and tears are with you especially today. May God hold you in the palm of His hand.

March 5, 2009 at 6:40 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have 2 in heaven also. My heart hurts when I think about what today will be like for you. I will be praying for peace for you and your husband. I'm so sorry for your loss.

March 5, 2009 at 6:44 AM  
Blogger Melanie @ Whimsical Creations said...

My thoughts are with you tooday. HUGS!

March 5, 2009 at 6:47 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

My thoughts & prayers are with you & your family.. I am so sorry for you loss.

March 5, 2009 at 6:55 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Jess and Joel -

I'm praying for you today.

March 5, 2009 at 7:01 AM  
Blogger Robert J. Nash said...

Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. May God give you comforting grace and peace that passes all understanding. It is sooo incredible to see faith in you and to read and be encouraged everyday. I truly appreciate your blog and I am praying for you. Your loss is so deep may God comfort you. Be encouraged that God is working in you and that he will carry you. May God bless your marriage today and your hearts.

Love and prayers from Stillwater, MN.

March 5, 2009 at 7:04 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy First Birthday Cora! May you have a beautiful day in heaven.

xxx Amanda WA

March 5, 2009 at 7:08 AM  
Blogger Heather said...

My heart is breaking for you! Prayers will be said for you and your family and for sweet Cora.

March 5, 2009 at 7:09 AM  
Blogger Tina said...

Praying for you today -

Tina

March 5, 2009 at 7:15 AM  
Blogger Regina said...

I've been following your story and praying for you since a friend of mine linked your blog on hers... You are remarkable and strong family who is truly an inspiration to other mothers and fathers out there.

I have a daughter, Olivia, who also shares Cora's birthday, March 5th. I will say a prayer for you today - may God's peace and grace fill you both.

March 5, 2009 at 7:16 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You sweet thing, we'll all be with you!

March 5, 2009 at 7:19 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you today, as they are everyday. I am so sad that you are not able to spend Cora's first birthday with her. My son Ethan will be turning 1 in less than a month...as a mother, I can only imagine your grief is indescribable, take comfort in Christ and know so many are lifting your family up in prayer. She was a most precious gift and has brought so much to others through her remarkable story...she touches the life of me and my family everyday!

Happy 1st Birthday Cora!

Lot of Love,
Sara and Ethan (VA).

March 5, 2009 at 7:27 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I found your blog through a friend of mine whose son is very sick... I pray everyday for your family. Today is going to be hard, just know the angels are celebrating with your sweet baby Cora. May God keep your family tight during this time. God Bless.. Happy Birthday sweet Cora!

March 5, 2009 at 7:28 AM  
Blogger Miranda said...

I have been thinking about you all week knowing that her birthday was approaching. Our soon to be 1 year old will release a balloon for her to add to her party in Heaven.

March 5, 2009 at 7:31 AM  
Blogger ems said...

Sending up an extra dose of prayers on Cora's b-day for you. Not a day goes by when i don't think of her and of you guys!

love,
Erin

March 5, 2009 at 7:31 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I found your blog through another friend of mine who linked to you one day. I've been praying for you since, and my heart is especially with yours today. May God hold you extra close and may you sense His nearness today.

March 5, 2009 at 7:31 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday to Cora! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family daily and have been for a long time. Cora will live forever in your hearts. May the Good Lord hold you tomorrow and always. Your faith is a testimony to so many.

March 5, 2009 at 7:32 AM  
Blogger Deborah said...

I'm aching for you. Thinking of sweet Cora constantly and praying for you both. Thank you so much for sharing her with us.

Happy Birthday precious Cora. You have touched so many hearts.

March 5, 2009 at 7:34 AM  

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